I hear you, Tonya. Life has a way of sort of sucking the life right out of you, but I must say that things have been interesting for me lately. However, if you were to ask me how, I really can't put my finger on it. It just feels like I'm headed in a new direction. I feel like I'm exploring a new territory. I am looking at life in a new light, with new eyes. It's amazing! Have you ever felt that way? I mean, I can't even put it into words really and honestly, nothing out of the ordinary has happened. I just sort of know...
One of the things that I've realized is that I need new goals. In the past, I just mindlessly blurt out something that I want to accomplish and simply forget about it within a couple of days. Most of the time, my goal was something that I believed to be impossible anyway. Still, this time I want to do it differently. I'm going to think and pray about what I should accomplish. It'll be something that I'm willing to commit to, then I'll sort of make a public announcement. Yeah, that's what I'll do. We're about to embark upon a new year, so there's no better time than right now to start planning for 2011...right?
You know, as I write this, my mind screams," Why try? You've done this multiple times on numerous occassions and you've failed miserably." This is true. I have tablets full of goals that I've never accomplished. Nevertheless, if I let my past mistakes and failures dictate my life, I'd never move forward. Furthermore, I wouldn't know what success tastes and smells like. And despite my many failures, I have had some significant breakthroughs in my life. So with that said, I'm starting over. I'm aiming to take on this process differently and hopefully end up with a different outcome. It's a miracle that I have the courage to admit my past mistakes and start over. So...I'm turning the page...
-Daphne-
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