A New Chapter

Dap!  That's so crazy!  I was thinking about some of the same things in church today.  So many times have I shared countless and countless of ideas on things I would like to do but never pursued it.  Like you, the goals seemed unattainable while at the same time I could see myself operating in those very dreams.  How contradicting is that!  I think I focused too much on what I couldn't do versus what I could and dwelled on what I didn't have forgetting what I did have.  I doubted myself and would talk myself out of the idea before I could begin to lay a foundation.  It's a vicious cycle I've been in for the past 10 years.  Sad, I know.

However, like you, today not only am I turning the page, I'm starting a new chapter.  I was listening to William Murphy's, The Sound cd and there's a song entitled dReam.  One line in this song really hit home, it said, "It's never too late to be who you should have been."  I am holding strong to those words.  I WILL BE WHO I SHOULD HAVE BEEN! 

I will not be the person looking back at life which I would have pursue my dreams.  I know that God has placed these ideas in me for a reason and it's up to me to do what I need to do to be that person God has called me to be.  So, yes!  It's a very exciting time.

2011 - Bring it on!

~Tonya

Turning the page

I hear you, Tonya.  Life has a way of sort of sucking the life right out of you, but I must say that things have been interesting for me lately.  However, if you were to ask me how, I really can't put my finger on it.  It just feels like I'm headed in a new direction. I feel like I'm exploring a new territory.  I am looking at life in a new light, with new eyes.  It's amazing!  Have you ever felt that way?  I mean, I can't even put it into words really and honestly, nothing out of the ordinary has happened.  I just sort of know...

One of the things that I've realized is that I need new goals.  In the past, I just mindlessly blurt out something that I want to accomplish and simply forget about it within a couple of days.  Most of the time, my goal was something that I believed to be impossible anyway.  Still, this time I want to do it differently.  I'm going to think and pray about what I should accomplish.  It'll be something that I'm willing to commit to, then I'll sort of make a public announcement.  Yeah, that's what I'll do.  We're about to embark upon a new year, so there's no better time than right now to start planning for 2011...right?

You know, as I write this, my mind screams," Why try?  You've done this multiple times on numerous occassions and you've failed miserably."  This is true.  I have tablets full of goals that I've never accomplished.  Nevertheless, if I let my past mistakes and failures dictate my life, I'd never move forward.  Furthermore, I wouldn't know what success tastes and smells like.  And despite my many failures, I have had some significant breakthroughs in my life.  So with that said, I'm starting over.  I'm aiming to take on this process differently and hopefully end up with a different outcome.  It's a miracle that I have the courage to admit my past mistakes and start over.  So...I'm turning the page...
                                                                                                              -Daphne-

Wasted Time

It's interesting how much time is wasted.  Knowing that I needed to blog, study the Word, and deep condition my hair, I'm sitting here watching tv.  I've been doing it for the past hour and had no motivation to do anything else.  This is definitely not the way to pursue my big dreams. However, after work, all I want to do is chill. 

I've been thinking on how I can better manage my time.  I'm thinking I should create a schedule - a high level schedule that I can review each day just to stay on track or in corporate terms, stay on target.  I guess I'll add that to my least of to-dos tonight since I can now scratch off blogging.

~Tonya